ThugLife

**CHRIS**

It was almost 1 in the morning when I looked down to see Maurice asleep on my lap. Everyone was in the living room watching Jason’s Lyric when my phone started ringing. I ignored the call because I told everyone that I was done for the night because I was chilling with my family. But it seemed like the person wasn’t getting the hint because they kept calling. I got up from the couch and walked into the kitchen.

“Who the fuck is this? You better have a good reason to be calling me.” I spat into the phone.

“It’s Pat.”

“Pat? Where the hell are you?” I asked him looking in the basement.

“Im at the hospital.” He said in a low voice.

“Why are you at the hospital?” I laughed, “You a damn nurse now?”

“Chris, hurry and get down here. Kae needs you and everyone else right now.”

“Hold on.” I said into the phone. I walked into the living room and turned on the light. “Draya, take Maurice up to his room.” 

Draya nodded her head and picked Maurice up off the couch and walked up stairs. Tyga, Porsha, Drake, Megan, Seiko, Wiz and Honey came into the kitchen. I put the phone on the speaker.

“Continue Pat.” I said.

“I don’t know how to tell you this, but Kae. She’s in the hospital.”

“Why is my sister in the hospital?” Seiko asked. She didn’t wait for Pat to answer her. She hurried and ran out the kitchen with Wiz and Porsha behind her.

“Chris, she tried to kill her self.”

Thats all I had to hear before I ran to the door. I ran outside without my shoes and shirt. Drake and Tyga were right behind me. I jumped into my new black truck and waited for Wiz, Porsha, Drake, Tyga, Trey and Seiko to get in. The girls could stay there by themselves. Drake passed me my shoes and shirt. I nodded a thank you and pulled out the park way and out the gate. I got on the highway and started to focus.

“What hospital is she in? What happened?” Seiko asked.

I ignored her, I didnt want to explain to her.

“Chris!” She screamed at me.

“SHE TRIED TO KILL HER SELF!” I yelled.

 I hurried and wiped the tears off my face but they kept falling. I pulled the truck over and park and got out. I walked up and down the road. I put my hands on top of my head and let the tears fall. To know she almost killed herself hurt me bad, something told me it was my fault. I sat down on the road and just cried. Its been years since I cried so all the emotions I’ve  held in  were now coming out.

Mad that I had friends that stabbed me in the back, mad because I grew up in such a fucked up life, mad because I’ve only been in my son’s life for 8 months, when I could have been there for 4 years. It just came out. All of it.

“Chris.” I looked up and Seiko was standing there. “Are you okay?”

“Seiko! Im trying.” I cried. I then chuckled, “I probably look like a little ass bitch midget right now.”

She laughed, “I dont know what that is but nah, you upset about the whole thing. I am too. Im kinda surprised at you. I never seen you cry before. Shit must’ve hit you hard.” She said sitting down next to me.

“Shit is kinda-.” I said when my voice cracked. “My fault.”

“It’s no one’s fault. Shit happens and we all still love you.”

I was quiet for about 3 minutes when I spoke up again.

“My plan was to do it on Maurice’s fifth  birthday.” I said shaking my head. “In a month.”

“Huh? What are you talking about?”  She asked me.

I smiled, “I got a friend name Mike. He does all this shit. Makes fake passports and all this shit. He was going to hack into the system and put Kae’s name on the papers for half custody of Maurice. That was my plan all alone. Everyone knew I had a plan but your the only one who really knows how its going to go down.” I said looking over at Seiko. She had a look of surprise on her face.

“You were really gonna do that?” She asked me.

I nodded my head and looked down, “I didnt expect her to do this shit. You feel me?”

“I-.”

“Ayeee! I know you having a sentimental moment but we gotta see about Kae!” Wiz shouted. “Aint you suppose to be a thug? Out here crying and shit. Kae a thug she gone make it.” 

I laughed and got up and pulled Seiko up. She hugged me tightly around my neck.

“I knew you had a plan. I knew their were going to be some changes.” She said in my ear.

“You know me.” I said smiling.

“Come on, we gotta see about my baby sister.” She said running back to my truck. I jogged to the drivers side and got in.

“Somebody call up Pat and tell him to send the directions.” I said pulling away from the curb and continued down the road.

**

When we pulled up to the hospital and I got out the truck. Seiko ran up behind me and grabbed on to my arm and squeezed tightly.

“I thought we were suppose to be thugs. Not worried.” I said to her. She let go of my arm and smiled.

“Nigga, I am a thug!”

“Yeah, okay. I see.” I said as the doors opened for us. We walked up to the women at the front desk.

“Um, my baby momma was checked in earlier. “

“I mean, I dont think her name is baby momma. Can you give me a full name?”

I was going to say something but Seiko cussing cut me off.

“Bitch, do you have to be fucking rude? My mother fucking sister could be dying and your big bird looking ass want to sit her with your Humpty Dumpty ass and try to be fucking rude to my fucking brother?” Seiko said putting her hair up. “If you George Foreman ass don’t look in your fucking computer and look up Karrueche Tran. Im am going to jump over this fucking table on your Crocodile looking ass, now you have 3 mother fucking seconds.”

“That wont be happening.” Pat said pulling Seiko away.

“Oh, you got touched by an angel girl!” Seiko said throwing up west side.

I got weak, she had everyone who was close enough to hear in stitches.

“She aint shit!” Tyga said to me.

“Hell yeah. She called her ass big bird.” I said holding my stomach in laughter.

We walked up to Pat and he pointed towards room 203.

“I know yall aint laughing and having fun when Kae’s laid up in a hospital.” Pat said shaking his head.

“Nah, we just needed to not be so scared.” Seiko said sitting down in the chair. “Chris was crying a fucking river before we came here.” 

I shot a look at Seiko and she laughed almost rolling out the chair she was sitting in.

“Baby ass thug.” Pat said chuckling.

“Ayee, Pat. At least I wasn’t here being a fucking nurse.” I said making everyone weak again.

“Okay, Tran family.” The doctor said coming out the room Pat pointed to earlier.

Everyone nearly ran up to the man killing him. Pat held him up when we backed up a little.

“Is she okay?” I asked him.

He caught his breath, “Yes. She’s awake now.”

“Can I see her?” I asked him looking at the ground then back at the doctor. 

Maybe she didn’t want to see my face. She hated me and I know that. 

“Yes, but please not long. She needs her rest.” 

“Okay… Thanks.” I said walking to the door. I stood there staring at the door knob.

“Nigga, go in!” Seiko yelled. I turned and gave her the look. She smiled and fanned her hand at me and laughed a little. I turned to the door and I counted to three in my head and I pushed the door open.

**KAE**
 
I was looking up at the ceiling thinking about how stupid could I be to try and kill myself. How dumb I look right now laid up in a hospital. My mind was racing and mind cloud with what if’s and maybes. What would my family do with out me? What would Maurice do with out me? Even though he wasn’t my son anymore he still was my son. You feel me? In the middle of my other thought the door swung open. I thought it would be Pat again but I was wrong. 

“Chris?” I whispered. I bet he couldn’t hear me though.

“Kae…” He said to me. He started walking slowly to the side of the bed towards me. He let his finger tips rub up against my legs. A chill ran up my spine. He ran his fingers up and down my leg not looking at me.

“I don’t know what I would do if I lost you. I don’t know what I would do If I couldn’t touch you anymore.” He said then he pulled his hand away. He then looked me in my face. His face then turned hard.

“Chris-.” 

“Why would you do this Kae?!” He asked me. The base in his voice made me jump.

“Excuse me.” 

The door opened and the nurse came in, “Please no shouting or anything. We don’t want her to stress.

“Im sorry, wont happen again.” Chris said nodding and looking back at me.

I watched as the nurse turn and shut the door behind her. I looked back up at Chris and I could see the tears on the rim of his eyes.

“Why you crying?” I asked him. Then thats when the tears came. “Aint you suppose to be a thug?”

He looked at me and a single tear ran down his face. I then remembered I have never seen Chris cry or anything of this sort.

“You think Im suppose to be cool about this shit Karrueche? No matter what your still my baby momma and I love you. You will always have a part of my heart no matter what. I just don’t understand why you would do this to me. To Maurice. To your  family.”

“C-chris. I was depressed when Maurice was taken from me. He was my love, heart, joy. He was mines then y-you came and took him from m-me.” I said chocking on my tears. “If you would have let me change my ways I would still have my son.” 

“And you think I wanted this?” He asked me in a low but angered voice. “You think I want to see you hurting? What kinds shit is that?” He asked turning around and running his hands over his face. He turned around and his face was red. I could tell he was crying but tried his hardest to mask it.

“Chris, when are we gonna stop the bullshit? Why can’t we just be grown about our shit?”

He looked at me and pulled the chair up to the bed and sat down in it.

“Kae, Im sorry for all the bullshit I put you through. I don’t regret shit though. Because I don’t regret my son. One thing I regret is letting a good thing slip through my fingers.”

“Chris, to tell the truth. I want to be with you. But not official. Until I get my self together. We both have something to work on. And if we don’t work on it now. Then we will never work.”

“We can start off slow. We can start off real slow.” He said nodding his head.

“Nothing more until I feel like we could do more.”

“How about friends with benefits?” He asked with a grin on his face.

“To soon Christopher!” I said laughing a bit. “You aint shit.”

“Yet.” He said laughing loud.

“Yo Big Pun ass laugh.” I said laughing with him.

“Everyone is here.” He said.

“Bring them in.” I said to him.

He got up from the chair and looked out the door, “Aye, come on in.”

“Ayeee, my bitch is up!” Seiko said coming in the room all loud. Wiz, Porsha, Tyga, Drake and Trey came in after her. They all came over and hugged me.

“Damn, can  you shut the fuck up. Loud ass mouth.” I said laughing. She came over to the bed and sat down.

“Please dont do no fuck boy ass shit like that again.” She said in my ear.

“I wont.” I said back to her.

“Good. You shoulda seen Chris ass earlier. He was sitting on the side of the road crying big thug ass tears.” Seiko said throwing Chris ass out. 

“Shut the fuck up. At least I wasn’t out there trying to fight the women at the front desk.” Chris said back to her.

“You were trying to fight the women at the front desk?” I asked Seiko.

“That Kentucky Fried chicken eating bitch got rude. Had to shut her shit down fast.”

I laughed, “You aint shit. You always trying to fight somebody.” I said laughing.

“Right, She had everyone in that bitch rolling.” Tyga said laughing.

“See, yall shoulda left her ass in the car.” I laughed.

“Or on a leash.” Porsha said pushing Seiko. Seiko stuck her tongue out at her.

“So, is everything good here?” Drake asked.

“What you mean?” Chris asked.

“Are you and Chris good now?”

Everyone was silent and we just looked at each other.

“This nigga always gotta make shit weird.” Wiz said taking a blunt out his pocket.

“Ayee, you cant fire that up in here.” Trey said.

“Who the fuck are you? Mall cop looking ass nigga. Where yo flash light at?”

Everyone laughed, “He must be high already?” I asked.

Everyone nodded their heads. Wiz put the blunt away and smiled wide at me.

“Bye Wiz.” I laughed.

“It aint my fault. I was stressing.”

“Im pretty sure you were.” I said smiling. “But to answer your question Drake, yes we are fine now. We aren’t fully there yet. But we are fine.”

“Good, cause I was gone die if yall would have kept that shit going.” Seiko said patting her head.

“Bitch, bye.” I said shaking my head. “Where’s Pat?” 

“He’s standing guard by the door.” Chris said.

“Okay.”

I was going to say something but the door opened and the doctor came in.

“Damn, Pat!” Chris said.

“He’s a doctor. I cant keep him out.” Pat said chuckling.

“Did you really try to keep a doctor out the room Christopher?” I asked laughing. 

“Well, sorry to end you guy’s visit but Kae and I have to have a meeting then she needs her rest.” The doctor said.

“Alright everyone.” I said sitting up in my bed. “It was nice to see yall.” 

Everyone came and gave me a hug and said their good byes. Chris walked up to me and kissed my cheek letting his lips linger a little longer then they needed.

“Im not letting Maurice see you in a hospital. So when your ready to see him. Just hit me up.” He said into my ear. I nodded my head and he broke away from me and nodded. He walked out the room and closed the door behind me. 

“Is that the guy that put you in here?” The doctor asked me.

“Well, he didn’t put me in here.” I said to him.

“Well, he’s a main reason?” He asked.

I nodded my head.

“Maybe you should stay away from him for a while.”

“Things have gotten better.” I said to him.

“It’s one night. Things could change. Its not that easy.”

I nodded to him. He was right. This was just one night and shit could soon change up. Im going to keep my head up and do me and get better. I want to get better for my son. And if I have to change to do that then I will. By the time this is over there will be a new Kae. A good change I might say.